Do I want to look like a flatchested child?

Yes! A girl about 12 who has just started developing breasts so she is almost flat. I was very thin when I was 12 and I was as tall as I am now so I'd like to look like that. I like the innocent sexuality, the unexperience of dirty mens minds. The happiness before all the bad experiences darkened my mind. I was happy about my body untill I was 16 and I got sick of men just being interested in my body. I felt I wasn't taken seriously. So I wanted to take responsibility of my body, not eat unhealthy and be sexy anymore, but be valued for my intelligence. I had been hung up on sweets and pretty boys, so I had to grow up and get control over my body, the desire for sex, attention and food.

When I felt weak I wanted to look like an innocent child, because to look sexy in that state will be taken advantage of. Now I don't need to be taken care of anymore. But I need to be weak, though, because I don't want to work for anybody. I don't want to feel like a nobody like I did when I was a child, criticised all the time. I want my freedom. I want to be care free like a child should be. I want a child hood where I have no responsibility and are loved even though I don't do something to please others, but just because I am me. And where I get freedom, not are over- controlled.

I have loved looking androgynous so people may not know if I am a irl or a boy after taking a closer look. I use mens clothes and have short hair.Then I am safe from sexual overtures.

If you have been over-controlled read this amazing article:http://blog.selfarcheology.com/2014/04/the-burden-of-being-over-controlled-as.html