Today

I talked to a very intelligent man right now. Not even him understood that for the body to come in balance it needs more food to compensate for all it didn't get. I don't understand why that is so hard to understand for people. It irritates me because then they might think I "get too fat" and "have got a binge eating disorder". Hopefully they admit they don't understand and lay low because of that.
Success and struggle: My hunger and appetite are still increasing. I almost reached minimum yesterday and will definetely reach it today. That took me only 6 days. That's how hungry my body is. The more I eat the more I want the next day. Wonder if that will ever stop before I have reached set point weight. That will take a while.

Overcome struggle: I have not been anxious, besides a little bit for the thought: "don't I eat too much now?" that I have to answer back: "Relax, you haven't even reached your minimums yet". Remember you need more than normal amounts."  (I think the body can feel it's fed with extra calories for healing and that I registrate that.) But yesterday when I layed my hand on my hip bones on the back before sleep I suddenly felt a bit of panick and thought "I can't live without feeling my bones!" Luckily a more reasonable thought came to assist and I understood it isn't the fat on the hips I am afraid of, luckily, but to be all soft. I have forgotten how it is to have fat on my body. Will even fat people be able to feel their hip bones on the back through the fat or not? It's exhausting to just eat and sleep. I mean it is exhausting being anxious.