Slow digestion, freedom and the fear of food.

Your digestion is slow because you don't eat enough or the body needs so much it will have the food in the intestines longer to make sure it can suck out every gram of food available. Hunger comes when the body needs more energy, not because the stomach is empty. Like in recovery, people eat and eat till they are more than full, but still want food. The stomach has not room enough to provide the body with the energy it needs. The stomach size is meant for normal eating. Not restricting and eating a lot. Just thinking about food is a signal of hunger. In recovery it's wise to eat calories dense so you can give the body as much energy as possible. The nerves needs to get their protection back, the protection of fat around the nerves the body ate up when we starved it, so eating a lot of fat is great, especially in the beginning of recovery (when many eat a lot of chocolate.) I eat a lot of butter, eggs, cheese and chocolate. It's nice to know nerves are healed while I am having a nice time:)

Food is nothing to fear. Food is a healing source for the body. The body we damaged by avoiding food. Don't listen to the fucked up psycho ED. Take you power back from this invisible whispering devil and be as good as you want to be to yourself and everybody. Take your freedom back! Don't let ED have you in the body prison any longer. You went in voluntarily! You can walk out voluntarily! It's a matter of choice between fear or care. Be brave!

When I invited ED into my life it was because I thought it would help me to be free. I thought having a thin body would make me confident enough to be free. But it's impossible to be free as long as you are not free to eat as well. Freedom is an overall feeling including everything. So what happened was I became less free because I had added an area where I couldn't be free. Instead of changing tactics I thought it would help to lose even more weight. But that resulted in even more loss of freedom and more fear. Fear and freedom don't go well together. Why didn't I change tactics? Because I wasn't free enough to see the big picture. I had a tunnell vision created by fear.