Mood

I eat processed food now. Sausages! I have missed them for decades. I didn't know eating freely could be so important for my wellbeing and mood. I think I have feared becoming a horrible person if I ate enough, as if I ate more I would give the beast inside of me fuel, but the opposite is true. I had a bad mood when I restricted and could become very angry because I didn't have the strength to deal with anything. Now everything is fine:) I have been afraid of gaining weight for all these years, but feeling this good is way better than being skinny and feeling weak, as if that made me safe somehow.

Those who love you and your personality don't mind how your body looks. The more we restrict the more the personality disappears and the lonelier and more bored we get. When we eat enough we can cherish that we have energy to express ourselves, not only have energy "to walk as a ghost through town".