Accepting a higher set point weight than what is preferred.

I can only talk for myself, for what helps me accept that my set point weight is higher than I want it to be. Accept doesn't come flying to me. I have pushed myself to try to accept it. The same with getting motivated for recovery. I have to make an effort and seek it.

I remember having a bigger body before getting sick and I was fine with it because I felt good. It was when some tragic events happened I blamed my body and started studying it critically. I couldn't control and stop other peoples cruelty so I identified my body with that cruelty so I could control it (kind of). The body got the blame and it suddenly looked way bigger than it really was and I felt it was all those things the cruel people was. Vulgar, selfish, not to be trusted, pig-like and with uncontrollable desires. My point is the body doesn't deserve the hate and the critical perspective.

There are things we can't control and we have to accept it. And that includes how the body looks. I know you have love for your body hidden somewhere in your mind. You must want it to be found.  It isn't us that should be imprisoned, but those fuckers that fucked us up.

What motivates me and helps me accept recovery is thinking about the positive aspects about it and the negative aspects I experienced when I was restricting that will disappear. Health issues, mood, freedom etc.