Always fearing the worst. Always prepare long time ahead.

I am prepared for becoming big, almost overweight. I have been on ebay.uk for hours and shopping clothes so huge I am now afraid I will never be able to use them. I must cool down. And look at what Gwyneth says: In clinical studies of anorexics who manage to fully recover from restrictive eating behaviors of all kinds, 2% actually reach weights above BMI 25. (I really want to yell the next sentence for emphasis since I'm already bolding and italicizing here). Of that tiny 2% NONE of them remained above BMI 25 one full year beyond recovery. No relapse and no restriction involved.