Not much improvement

There is no improvement when it comes to bloating. If I should spend the whole day with someone and held the gas inside I would have bursted. There is so much! The more I eat the worse it gets. Today I will go from 3000 down to 2500 because I am sick of it. Just eat a bit less to every meal. I hope I won't feel hunger, because then i am not doing recovery right. Restricting is not allowed. I do restrict types of food, but that is not as important as the amount.

I still often feels painful to pinch my skin. When my son wants to hug me he must be careful not to squeeze me too hard at my upper body.

I must admit I feel a bit scared now for further weight gain because I feel big and feminine already at BMI 18,5. To weigh above this is uncomfortable for me. I'm a little nervous about it. I want to delay it by going back to eat the minimum. It's so hard picture my self bigger. I have a fuller face now. It is both prettier and scary to look at. I look so alive and human. I can't describe it precisely.