Det er ett fett med fettet.

Det er ikke fett på kroppen jeg er redd for egentlig, men hva fett på kroppen kan føre til. Det jeg er redd for er hva mennesker som vil trakkasere kan finne på av skade når jeg har en fyldigere kropp. En usexy flat kropp som ikke provoserer med former er tryggere enn en voksen kropp fordi ingen sier noe på den eller tar på den.

I just realized that I am not afraid of the fat on my body at all, not do i hate my body as fat either. It is what happened to me when I had curves as a 16-year old that disgusted and frightened me. I started to disgust my fat (curves) instead of just the what happened. It is the past. I don't have to be afraid the same shit will happen again. I am far from as naiv as I was then. I don't know what will happen in the future, but i know I will not be as afraid and weak. I will fight back and think the person is beyond stupid if he/she intimidates me. Oh God, God is preparing me for a future with fat on my body it seems. Ha-ha! I am not afraid. There is a lot of stupid, judgmental and pig-like people out there though, but I will avoid them all. Not because I am afraid of them, but because i don't respect them having no empathy at all. I will feel pitty for them. They don't deserve an explanation, they don't deserve my reaction, they don't deserve a look in their direction. I will walk away and they will stand with a question mark they probably later will try to find an answer to. It is not my responsibility to enlighten them. Why should I give to someone that tries to deprive me? Those who do that must feel very empty inside that have to start digging in others to find substance. My substance is for the thankful ones. Not for the ungrateful.