Habits as an anorexic.

I use the same fork every time I eat. It has to be beautiful, small and in silver. I also use the same knife and spoon. Other utensils may make me get into a habit of eating more, i fear.

I have to have it tidy and clean and I wash up my plate and utensils right after I have eaten.

I drink a lot of black tea with soy milk and sucralose liquid.

I use lot of artificial sweetener.

I eat a lot of raspberries (and strawberries) to avoid constipation.

I pinch my fat daily.

I weigh myself regularily, but I only do it when I think I will see a lower number than the last time.

I look at my fat in the mirror.

I count every gram of food on a food scale and write down all I eat in a diary on the internet so i am sure i don't eat too much.

I feel guilty for being so occupied with food and appearance.

I have to tear food in small pieces. I don't want to appear greedy or vulgar!

I have to watch something on the TV or internet while I am eating.

I have to be calm and not disturbed while eating.

I try to eat alone every time I eat.

I always use too large clothes so noone can tell my body shape or find me sexy.

I always want to be thinner.

I am always concern about people finding me too thin or fat.

I watch a lot of thinspo, masterchef program, documentaries about dieting and eating disorders.

I use a lot of salt.

I eat a lot of vegetables.

I never eat sugar or carbs with high GI.

I compare myself with models and thin girls younger and more fit than myself.