Many have negative thoughts about their body but they don't develop an E.D.

I had negative thoughts about my body before I developed anorexia. But something bad happened before I was disturbed enough to make the change to be be anorexic. But if I had had someone to talk to about what happened to me I would not have developed anorexia. It was when i thought about the fact that i had noone to support me and talk to about what had happened I had to make a plan to take care of myself and grow up. So I wanted to diet because I had eaten like a child what ever I wanted and become chubby at the age of 16. But a few years later I just wanted to be like a child and not grow up. Not that I wanted anyone else to take care of me in a controlling way, but just to love me, be close. I got better control of my ED when i got a boyfriend that cared about me after having an ED for 5 years and isolated myself. Then i was able to eat regularily, but i was still very controlling and have been that ever since because i want to keep my weight lower than my body want me to.

Now I think I want a man that like me no matter size and that would be happy if I gained to my set point weight, and that found me more sexy the bigger I got. That is the support I need now to be almost fully recovered.