Answering question: What motivated you to recover? I don't have any goals in life?

I had no motivation to recover some months ago because I had no goals in life. I think I must have forgotten about the value I can bring to the world. I can be the way I have always needed others to be. 

What made me want to recover now is the fact that I am so tired of not having energy to anything. I like to exercise, but now I can't do much, and I know it will make me happier to be able to. I am in my fourties so I have given up dreams about education. I have had an ED all my life. I have a son, though, and he would die if I did, and he really needs me now because he is forced to live with his father against his will ,because he was chosen by the court to be the best caretaker for him, compared to me who have an ED. It motivated me some to get well that there is a small chance I will get him back if I get well, but I don't have high hopes about it. Nevertheless, my son is fighting now and I need to be strong to support him.

I think focusing on something besides or beyond ourselves can help. Focusing on ourselves leaves us empty, because we don't see what we have inside to offer the world before we express it. We just see a big black abyss. We also get inspired by something outside or beyond ourselves.