Still dazzled.

I have eaten till I am full, till I am satisfied, at every meal for 6 weeks now, and I am dazzled about the feeling every time. I am still not used to it after all the time just eating some, and never enough.

And the same goes for waking up and don't have to worry about the amount of exercise I have to do during the day and the fear of lack of energy. I still get the thought about exercise every morning, and lucky me don't have to do any. And I don't do any. I go to the shop every second day, if i don't take the bus,  and do some yoga if i have energy (but just done it 2 times during the last 6 weeks this physical recovery has been going on).

To live a lazy life and eat a lot on purpose is very strange when it is the opposite from what I forced my self to for all my teenage and adult life.

Yes, I'm still nor used to it. But I am more relaxed and in a better mood. Some times I have a reality check because it is so strange observing myself behave so differently. I eat between 2100 and 2300 calories now, because I did not gain any when I ate 2000. I eat when I am hungry as much as I want. I have had some anxiety, but not more than a few times because I have a mindset that makes it pretty easy.