Purification

I used to purge. I think I needed to purge up all the toxic and negative comments mum had fed me with. (No wonder many of us likes clean eating, becomes vegan and fruitarians) Now I just feel my upsetting emotions and perhaps write or talk about what thoughts comes up with them if it comes any. To feel the emotions purifies us. If we feel them they will go away. Instead of running upset to binge/purge until relaxed I stop running away from my feelings, I sit with my feelings until i am relaxed. We shouldn't act when upset. It can be destructive. We need to learn how to manage our emotions. First step is to not run away, next is to accept them (not identify with them) and feel them. That way we get to understand ourselves, what we like, dislike, what hurts us and so on. To find words to describe or illustrate all the different emotions and feelings was helpful to me. I was so nice to find words on what I felt, like upset, confused, despair and so on. If you can not find the acceptance you need from within find someone who will support you with that kind of care so you can learn how to yourself. Or If you believe in God to let him partake will help you forget about the world and fearlessly feel and express what is inside.