2. juli 2016

Insomnia

Yes, enough sleep is super important. I sleep in the day time up to three times to get enough. Like with other body signals, like hunger and the need to go to the toilet, I think it is important to react fast. Go to sleep when tired. Not wait till the tiredness change into a blurry state of mind just because it is more tempting to be awake. I need to know it is very quiet. Some times I use ear plugs. The temperature is also of importance. Fresh air, darkness and no stressfull thoughts is helpful. It is not a good idea to postpone problemsolving and planning till bedtime. Then the emotions that follows thoughts will keep us awake. My mother is doing exactly that and find theanine helpful to make her not think so much and eagerly.

Many suggest meditation for insomnia. That is because you get aware of what is on your mind so you can go though it and get a clear mind in the end. A clear mind will give a relaxed body.

Sometimes we may be tense because of build up emotions. Then yoga is pefect for releasing them. It is important, though, to be in a safe place physically and mentally so you can allow your self to express the emotions, or you may just get scared of feeling there is some turmoil inside and never actually feel what it is.

I learned from home that crying for my own part was the same as self pity. That is uncorrect, of course. It was when I cried once when my mum came into my room when I was a teenager. She said that self pity thing then with contempt. Noone ever cared about how I felt as a child or teenager so I had no choice but to keep it all inside. And as I kept sadness and anger inside the happiness was swallowed with it. I just felt emotions as turmoil and could get very scared of the power of them and not knowing what it was. To starve starved my emotions. I could also purge to release tention in my solar plexus. I hadn't learned how to handle emotions. At my childhood home they were hidden under carpets and behind walls.

I couldn't get myself to express sadness untill I found supportive love when I was 21. I could cry then, but not totally let go before I found Gods love. The greatest love surrounds us with support , you can almost feel the pink energycusion everywhere. It is possible to go beyond ourselves, then, let our heads go.

Yes, I forgot to mention that I find it easier to sleep after a meal than at night time when I haven't eaten for hours. I usually get tired 30 minutes or so after a meal if I haven't slept enough during the night or earlier in the day, and love to sleep then. If you know you can't sleep because you don't eat enough there is no point in looking for other sources. I did that for years, tried to find something to give me energy even though I knew back in my mind the only thing that could truly help was more food and rest. Waste of time and money. I would do almost anything just to avoid getting bigger, but now I experience that to be big is only awful under the influence of ED. Being thin is also awful under the influence of ED. Without it = freedom no matter what weight.

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