27. juli 2016

If your mother restrict food while you are in recovery

It's not very supportive of your mother to starve while you recover from starvation. Have you told her it may ruin your recovery and ask if she can stop it and be supportive instead? Ask her if she by restricting want to risk that you may start restricting as well because she by her actions says it is ok and risk that she lose a daughter for her own vanity.    Anyway you must try to be strong in what you believe is right to do and do it. Maybe you must avoid destructive people for a while till you are less vulnerable? What will make you stronger? More food, more knowledge, more support? Get it somehow.

When we meet people who are dieting we can use the opportunity to tell them things they obviously don't know, but we have learned. Like that they slow down their metabolism, that they will gain even more fat after the diet, that they don't only lose fat, but organ tissue and muscles as well. We can tell them about set point weight that allows them to eat what ever they want. About body acceptance, the diet industry that don't want us to know that they incourage people indirectly to starve, to starve their organs, to be more vulnerable to infections and stress the adrenals which can lead to fatigue. We can tell them about the importance of sleep and rest and warn against over-exercising to heal the adrenals and cure fatigue. That eating well and sleeping enough makes us less vulnerable (take things with a laugh instead of a cry) and more tolerant towards the natural body. We can ask them if to look good is more important than to feel good and be healthy and strong. And if they have been taught what is beautyful or investigated what they think is beautiful themselves. If they could work on their own tolerance instead of being a victim of the lack of tolerance in society.  To not accept how the body looks, what it needs and so on is lack of love. To diet and exercise to be thin is fear-driven and destructive. There is so much to say to people who haven't reflected on the subject or looked up information not influenced by the diet industry, but based on the interest of health.

18. juli 2016

On high carb

A couple of days ago I loved the taste of butter and ate a lot of it, but now that I eat max 10% fat I get disgusted by the thought of it. It is like the body agrees that i should either eat fat or carbs. At least now. Glad the body is working with me on this. It's a relief I don't need to eat much protein at all. Carbs, carbs, carbs :it's not boring. It's delishes. I managed to eat over 2000 calories yesterday so I can continue doing this for at least 2 weeks as Matt has recommended someone else that had eaten low carb.

I'm so happy I don't have to fear a lot of fat gain and too little muscle gain. I am looking at my body in hope to see less water weight. I can't see any change yet. I'm glad I found Matt Stones work now before I had gained too much fat. I have probably what I need, even though I can't be sure because what is water weight and what is fat is impossible to tell at the moment. So looking forward to less water. Maybe I shouldn't be too impatient because water weight means healing and it's good the healing can continue on carbs as well. I want to get healed NOW, but it does take a lot of time and I have just had 2 months. In the starvation experiment the men had not healed much in two months at all. After 4-6 it was much better.

I had a lot of gas yesterday evening so it was hard to be able to sleep tonight. But it was released this morning with perfect stool. Hope it will get better soon. I think gas is better than constipation.

What is a surprise to me is that without adding beans, cheese, fish or meat the protein I get is still above my need. That is amazing. I am bored of meat and fish so that is great, I think. It's protein in the whole wheat, whole spelt, oats and the light milk I drink with a little cacao powder in.

I always thought oats was boring, but now I love it with pineapple and vanilla yoghurt( artificially sweetened). I eat mashed potatos and home made rolls from whole wheat or spelt. I'm going to try baking with corn flour and buck wheat as well. I don't add anything to the flour other than water and salt. It tastes amazing anyway.

I have eaten above 2000 the three days I've eaten low fat high carb. My minimum is supposedly 2500, but I'm not far from it so I'm ok with that. I have eaten 4500 for many weeks so I think it's fine.

16. juli 2016

No more low carb

After reading what Matt Stone says about low carb and weight I read a lot in panick to make sense of it all the past two days. Already today I am eating carbs again. Almost just carbs, to get my body used to them again. I was afraid of horrible reactions, but my refeeding must have done some good because I have eaten apples, pineapple, oranges, potatoes, yoghurt, wheat and oats with no problems other than I had to sleep almost right after eating wheat and potatoes, but I'm used to sleeping at daytime so that is alright.

I have more energy today. I have baked chibatta and rolls, vacumed, been out shopping and talked energetically on the phone the few hours I didn't sleep. I have so much energy. I feel it in my muscles. I think my almost extreme hunger was for carbs all along.

I thought yesterday that I wouldn't manage to eat the boring carbs, but boy was I wrong. I'm such a habit person. I get used to things so quickly and make a habit of it right away. To be able to eat to minimum without fat is impossible for me, at least today. I don't know how long I should eat just carbs. If I manage to increase the calories to minimum I can do this for weeks, but if I don't eat enough I should eat some fat too or I will stop the healing process and reduce my musclemass. But now I just feel great accept the head ache. That is common for people who has changed their diet, Matt says.

Some are able to overeat on just carbs. How do they do it? This is to fire up the metabolism so they can eat more afterwards and not have to restrict. Look at the blog post "Matt Stone says" and you will find more on this topic, as well as links to his homepage.

He says low carb reduces the metabolism and tires out the adrenals. The reason why i just eat carbs now that i am getting the body used to them is that if we eat carbs and fat when we are used to fat only we will gain fat weight. How I don't know. If we eat almost carbs only we will not gain fat. If we overeat on just carbs we will gain muscle weight only.

My plan is to first get used to carbs so I can eat both fat and carbs later, and then eat balanced (mostly carbs, fat in moderation and a little protein. More calories from fat than from protein. The opposite of what i ate for years.

15. juli 2016

Hiding

It is more normal and acceptable for girls and women to wear shorts instead of bikinis at the beach. In 30-40 years time when the fat shaming has increased even more it will be acceptable, and soon after even obligatory, to wear large cardboard boxes with holes on top at summer time.

Great article about insulin and the low carb myth

Panicking

I sendt this to the 180 degree diet:
Hi. I am a recovering anorexic who have eaten 4500 calories for 7 weeks now and have gained water and fat. I read that Matt says that you can't build muscles on low carb ( how low?) and suggest recovering anorexics to eat just 10% from fat and mostly carbs to gain muscles. I have eaten only 6 % from carbs = 63 grams these weeks a day. If I continue doing this will I gain fat only if I am just resting? My body craves fat mostly, and fruit (that I don't eat), not potatoes and stuff because it wants more body fat at the moment, so I wonder if I should wait with the diet switch till the body wants to gain muscles and maybe I don't crave fat so much anymore or start right away.

I have been on low carb while undereating for many years. I tried eating fruit after 3 years and got stomach pain so I didn't add it to my diet even though I wanted to be less strict. Now you will probably say: add carbs slowly (even though that leads to fat gain). I don't want extra fat, you know, but, I don't know. So I wonder should I continue low carb, go on the 10% fat diet Matt suggests or should I eat high fat diet with more carbs and deal with the extra fat? Most importantly: will I gain muscles on low carb when only resting like those on high carb does while in anorexia recovery? And will eating low carb high fat (372 grams = 77%) make me gain too much fat and too little muscles?

So you see where I am at. Reading Matt Stones writings has made me so confused because I trust the well informed guy. I have bought a lot of high carb foods so I can start tomorrow on the diet that I can eat as much carbs I want as long as I eat less than 10% from fat. This way I will only gain muscles. I tried to make a menu and it is very hard to reach enough calories with so little fat. So I'm worried I am ruining my recovery now. Oæææ! Confused, confused, confused.

I actually do know what I should do to not ruin my recovery and make everything perfect. That is to add carbs slowly and deal with the weight gain. It's a hard one. My fear is I will gain too much fat, but that is probably not what will happen. I will gain the fat I need quicker. I'm already uncomfortable with my gain. Recovery is so scary.