Back on the old track

It is so hard to eat normally after the weight is restored and the hunger is normal again because that is when to restrict a little is super easy and it even feels natural because I am so used to it, I guess. And after the period of time when I have eaten more than normal to restore my weight I am tired of food, so restriction is hard to avoid! I guess the body will get back in harmony after a while: First super hungry, then tired of food and lastly a balanced hunger and appetite, but by the time I am in balance I am already stuck in my habit of restriction! I know I should probably eat 2000 calories a day, but I eat 1500 now. I understand that I don't like the feeling of being well nourished. I wish I did not have to eat. I still have digestive problems and have to use digestive enzymes to digest fructans in onion, wheat, banana, GOS in beans and lactose in milk. I have to follow a low fodmap diet strictly. I don't digest any of the fodmaps. My diet is therefor very limited and boring.

Edit 15.08.2024

Yes so I got down to the same weight I had before going all in.. I will do reverse dieting this time. I am already eating 1830 per day without gaining weight. I do it slowly, but steadily. I have tried several times before, but in the past I stopped every time I stepped on the scale and saw I had gained, even though I gain water weight every month no matter what I do. I just have a tiny doubt it is just water weight when i know I eat more so because I fear weight gain i go back to the intake i had right before I was adding more. Now I am not gonna freak out if I see I have gained because by adding food as slowly as I do it is impossible to gain fat. And I have experienced it sos many times now that what I feared was fat gain was indeed just water because I kept on losing weight. I am gonna write it on a note on the scale for myself so i don't change my mind yet again.

The problem with reverse dieting is one may likely experience a surge in appetite and hunger when eating more. So adding very slowly is key. First step is to increase food intake as long as i do not gain. When I see I have increased it so much I have gained (more than just the monthly water weight) I will decide then if I will take step 2 and keep on increasing. If I still feel hungry for a higher food intake ( can not imagine I will not) I will keep on adding to allow the most necessary weight gain so I get out of the underweight category. If I am still hungry for more after that I have to consider again what to do. If I am ok with a higher weight or not by then. I doubt that I will do step 3 this year, but I will some day. I know.