Body hate. Motivating phrases.

The people who eat what the fuck they want, the amount they need and have a natural body are the toughest! Not those who are scared of not pleasing others and restrict themselves in every way.

IF YOU HATE YOUR BODY, THE HATE HASN'T GOT THE RIGHT ADDRESs.

IF YOU ARE DISGUSTED BY YOUR BODY, IT'S NOT THE BODY THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH.

I think also there's an incredible freedom that comes with realizing that no matter what you do, you can't just pick a weight and decide to force your body to be there without also having the horrible ed thoughts and anxiety that come with it.

To strive for a unnatural low fat body is so last year!
Along with trying to be perfect even though humans never can be.
We have understood we are all imprefect now. Get over it!

My life began when I stopped trying to lose weight and set my mind to losing hate.

I only hate my reflection for as long as I indulge my hatred. I read blogs about loving curves (thanks guys for the recommendations) and I'm learning to see my own curves through a lens of love. 

I'm accepting I'm beautiful because of my imperfections, in both body and mind. No one likes perfect people anyway.

The best way to make Ed shut up is to stuff a 400 calorie muffin in the mouth. 

It is the restriction itself that is driving you crazy, and calories kill the anxiety. If you are anxious - EAT MORE. Out in starvation land they call this emotional eating. I like to call it life-sustenance and the xmas miracle - eat eat eat. Namaste x 

Mr. Ano can not win. It lost when the energy ran out.
Who would ask a life sucking devil for advice in life? 

Fat is a critical endocrine (hormone producing) organ in our bodies -- we should no more mess with it that we should be thinking our intestines are too long or our lungs are too big. (Yes, that was Gwyneth) 

But then I had a thought. I thought that maybe freedom can occur when you can accept that your greatest fear has finally happened to you...and it's really not all that bad. 

I feel a lot less pressure to apologize for my body and a lot more pressure to apologize TO my body instead.



 

Answering question: What motivated you to recover? I don't have any goals in life?

I had no motivation to recover some months ago because I had no goals in life. I think I must have forgotten about the value I can bring to the world. I can be the way I have always needed others to be. 

What made me want to recover now is the fact that I am so tired of not having energy to anything. I like to exercise, but now I can't do much, and I know it will make me happier to be able to. I am in my fourties so I have given up dreams about education. I have had an ED all my life. I have a son, though, and he would die if I did, and he really needs me now because he is forced to live with his father against his will ,because he was chosen by the court to be the best caretaker for him, compared to me who have an ED. It motivated me some to get well that there is a small chance I will get him back if I get well, but I don't have high hopes about it. Nevertheless, my son is fighting now and I need to be strong to support him.

I think focusing on something besides or beyond ourselves can help. Focusing on ourselves leaves us empty, because we don't see what we have inside to offer the world before we express it. We just see a big black abyss. We also get inspired by something outside or beyond ourselves.

What to do and who are you without the disorder?

Everyone of us in recovery are having or had more or less identity problems, I guess. The last time I tried recovery I struggled with that for sure. If I was no longer the skinny one, was I then the fat one soon? That was what I feared. But that was silly, because I shouldn't identify myself with a body, but my character, values and perhaps to some degree my interests and actions. If you haven't found another interest in life to engage in yet, maybe you could engage in getting a healthier body?  Like one is slowly getting thinner as restricting, one slowly feels stronger in recovery. And think about what you earlier may have thought you want to do, but have thought you couldn't because you didn't have the power to do it. Now in the future you will be able to. Focus on that. Dream big. Read recovery blogs with girls living happily the way they want to. Perhaps they will inspire you.