No longer proud.

To be skinny was my protection. It was my focus point when I was self aware, my "self". I felt safe because my identity was the skinnyness noone would criticize. Now that identity is gone. I feel vulnerable going out facing people. Should I be proud of something else now, then? No. I have always hated pride. I will focus on goodness. Not a mask for the world theatre, but the true self behind the fear of having nothing to be proud about.